“My imperfections and failures are as much a blessing from God as my successes and my talents and I lay them both at his feet.”
I am slowly coming to the realization that this exciting new chapter to my life has not been brought about by my talents, charisma or uniqueness. This all started with my becoming comfortable with myself — ALL of myself — and recognizing that flaws and failure are just as much a part of my being as triumph and strength.
For a long, long time I’ve done everything I could to mask my imperfections from everyone else (don’t we all?). I tried to play up my strengths to an extent that people would be too dazzled to see my struggles. I really have to say that I’d gotten pretty good at this. I was afraid that showing the reality of my life would mean being alone for the rest of it.
I met a wonderful man who has never made me feel uncomfortable about my flaws (physical or otherwise). I started letting my guard down bit by bit, and when I had Ethan almost a year ago, this process of release accelerated. After all, a mom who doesn’t accept the fact that she can’t do it all has a pretty rough existence. I started to understand the give and take of healthy relationships. There are some things that are a lot easier for Adam (i.e. bathing Ethan), so why fight it?
As I am becoming more comfortable shedding light on the entirety of who Sarah is, doors are flinging open for me left and right. I have that burning in my heart that tells me this is a pivotal moment in my life. It feels like in laying my failures at the feet of God, (surprise!) He is using them for good.
What a wonderful God I serve.