Well, I turned 30 yesterday. I threatened to turn “29 again,” because 29 was such a great year, but I’m not staying there! When I think of all the wonderful things that have happened in the last couple years, all the dreams that have begun to come true, I get a little nervous. What if this is all I ever accomplish? Have I already passed my purpose?
My son insisted this was the right photo for this post. :)
I mean, what I’ve been a part of this year is a lot for me! Travel, a book, a baby, freelancing, homeschooling (sort of)… I really could die a happy woman at this point (aside from the whole leaving-my-family-behind thing). It’s so tempting to just plop down with my photo album and bury myself in my past, while I’m still living.
But I refuse to believe God is done with me. He gives me a hope and a future. Even if the present or past seems more than I could ever ask, He still has a beautiful future for me. I struggle to grasp that. Dreaming big isn’t as easy as it sounds. When was the last time you really wrapped your brain around the fact that God has something big for you to do?
I can’t tell you how many times I’ve seen the movie The Incredibles. It’s a favorite in our house. But I’m reminded of how Mr. Incredible sort of shrivels away as he spends his days reminiscing about the “glory days.” The days when he knew his purpose and pursued it. Those days being over, he couldn’t believe there would be anything more for him. So he became bitter and denied his reality, missing precious time with his family.
I don’t know if I’ll be a public speaker forever, as much as I love it. I have no clue if I’ll write another book. This may be my “15 minutes of fame,” as much as I’d wish for years of it. But when this time in my life is gone, I’ll dream another dream. Perhaps just to settle down in a quiet country home. (Ahhh… I’m down with that!) Or to love my children and grandchildren the way God wants me to.
Or to start up an animal rescue… who knows.
God is bigger than my past, the bad parts and the good. He’s not scratching His head wondering what’s left to do with me.
So if you ever find yourself wondering if He’s still got plans for you, wonder not. If you are alive, He’s not done.
What will you dare to dream?