As many of my readers know, I’ve been working on a book. I have an agent, and for the last several months we have been working on revising chapters in response to publishers’ feedback, and now I have a contract offer on the table, and possibly another coming. I feel like Rapunzel, sitting in my boat, about to watch my dream come true. I wonder if it’s going to be all I’d hoped it would be.
I wonder if I’m going to change, and if so, in what ways? I wonder what I will do with myself after my “lights have launched” and there’s nothing else to watch and wait and pray and dream for.
I have never been great at finishing things… I’ve been a college student (off and on) since 2001. I should be a doctor by now, but I don’t even have a bachelor’s degree. The problem is that I enjoy it. I didn’t want it to end. But with a book, I’ll have “X” number of months to finish it, or I’m in breach of contract. This is one dream that I’ll have to wake from.
But I found comfort in these words this morning: “You get to go find a new dream.” One day, I’ll write out the entire story of how I even came to write this book at all, but trust me when I tell you, God had his hand on this situation. There were too many freak coincidences for me to work this out alone. And I know if God is bringing me to this place of a dream fulfilled, He won’t leave me when it’s over. This is much like the apprehension I felt when going into labor, and as glorious as the moment of birth was, the moments of joy that have followed are innumerable.
I wrote all this out because I’m certain I’m not the only one who’s hesitated to pursue something because of that moment of panic. Yeah, I needed to encourage myself a little, but maybe you needed it, too?
There is always another mountain to climb. It would be a shame to spend a lifetime preparing for Everest and never scale a foothill.
Cpickerel
Sarah, it might comfort you to know that “your dream” is only this part of “His Plan” His plan is even bigger than your dream! Imagine that! Our vision is somewhat “near sighted” compared to His. And that is the way that works best for us, we need the little successes along the way to keep us going. But He has even bigger things in store for you than even this, amazing as it is.
ScrappyScribe
Sarah I am so excited for you. Congratulations! You are an inspiration to this middle-aged mom who worries too much about change and possible success. Sadly, I know I have been disobedient in heeding the call. You go girl!
I nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award. Read my post for today if you want to join the fun.